I'm going to put you in a "what-if" scenario, and I am interested, not really in which choice you make, but why you make the choice.
A man calls you up and tells you he has three hostages, and you alone get to save one of them. He has a very sharp eye on you, he says, so don't try to call the police, otherwise none of them will be saved.
The first hostage is the pastor of your local church, although not your church. The second is a pathologist on the brink of discovering a cure for cancer. The third is a newborn diagnosed with with severe mental retardation.
The pastor, if you choose to save him, will be an instrument of God to save souls.
The pathologist, if you choose to save her, will be an instrument of God to save lives.
The newborn, although unable to be an instrument to save souls or lives, is innocent.
Remember, by choosing one, you condemn the other two to death. Based on those details, I ask you, "Which one will you save? Which?"